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Maybe light a candle
Don't say a prayer for me
Feel alone
Cause I'm gone
I left you
Make Christmas your own

You throw the thought of us away
You'll be alone this holiday

Said, It's cold in this town
And there's snow on the ground
Far from home
Not alone
I left you with nothing
And that's what you own

You throw the thought of us away
You'll be alone this holiday

Maybe light a candle
Don't say a prayer for me
Feel alone
I left you the best time
Make Christmas your own

You throw the thought of us away
You'll be alone this holiday

[Kelly Osbourne:]
You'll be alone this holiday [x4]

"Hands Down"

Breathe in for luck,
breathe in so deep,
this air is blessed,
you share with me.
This night is wild,
so calm and dull,
these hearts they race,
from self control.
Your legs are smooth,
as they graze mine,
we're doing fine,
we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high,
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury,
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted;
just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear...
so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
and this walk that we shared together.
The streets were wet
and the gate was locked so I jumped it,
and I let you in.
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it,
that you meant it,
and I knew,
that you meant it,
that you meant it.

I've been up at this all night long
I've been drowning in my sleep
I've prayed for your safe place
And its time for us to leave

Time is running, its running on empty and the gas is running out
I've decided that tonight is the night
That I let love aside
Full speed ahead this seems to be the place
I've seen this once before
Planned perfection sought in my dreams
Hoping this would take you home

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
So kiss me one last time

Around this turn where the cross will cast your shadow
The people will all gather
To remember such a day
Where the flames grew as high as trees
And the world stopped for you and me

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(so hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)

I will now bring new meaning to the word alone
Endless nights of dreaming of life
And the days we should have spent here

Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep
Drowning in my sleep I'm drowning in my sleep

Glass shatters and comes to a halt
I thought we'd be there by now
I thought it would be so much quicker than this

Pain has never been so brilliant
I made sure you were buckled in
Now you can walk hand in hand with him
Hand in hand with him

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your eyes)
My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
(so hold on tight)
Kiss me one last time
(Shut your...)

12th and hyde on a sunday
Feeling like were gold
And we're nothing short of invincible (INVICIBLE)

It starts again
Can you feel it
It takes your breath away
Stop saying that we're invincible
(its round and round)
Youre uninviting, unrewarding
And I'm misinforming you
Misinforming you

We all want to be, wanna be somebody
Right now we're just looking for the exit

[chorus]
This is the way I would have done things
Up against the wall
Up against the wall
You've got me up against your wall
This is the way I would have done things
Up against the wall
Up against the wall
You've got me up against your wall

Its you and me on a monday
The lies that we told
This is were we both go numb now
You broke my heart again this time
Your fading now you crossed the line
You crossed the line

We all want to be somebody
Right now we're just looking for the exit

[chorus]

Reaching out for a hand
Its not here
But your not here
Your not here

This is the way i would have done things
Up against the wall
Up against your wall
This is the way we should have done
When were up against our wall
Up against our wall

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TODAY IS ME AND MY REBECCAS 3 MONTH ANNIVERSERY AND I LOVE HER TO PIECES SO YEA YOU KNO YOU LOVE US !?!?!
HAHAH YEA RIGHT but I SWEAR I WANT TO BE WITH HER FOR EVER !!! I LOVE YOU <3ECCA

"Sophomore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year"

Are we growing up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

We're the therapists pumping through your speakers
Delivering just what you need
We're well read and poised
We're the best boys
We're the chemists who've found the formula
To make your heart swell and burst
No matter what they say, don't believe a word

Cause I'll keep singing this lie if you'll keep believing it
I'll keep singing this lie
I'll keep singing this lie

Are we growing up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

We're traveled like gypsies
Only with worse luck and far less gold
We're the kids you used to love
But then we grew old
We're the lifers here till the bitter end
Condemned from the start
Ashamed of the way
The songs and the words own the beating of our hearts

Cause I'll keep singing this lie
I'll keep singing this lie

Are we growing up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
take our tears and put them on ice
Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light
There's a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up
And there's another around to help us bend your trust
I've got a sunset in my veins
And I need to take a pill to make this town feel okay

The best part of "Believe" is the "Lie",
I hope you sing along and you steal a line
I need to keep you like this in my mind
So give in or just give up
[x2]

Are we growing up or just going down?

Are we growing up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

yea well lets see today was pretty fun until i got to bowling, everything was fine until we went to tops , but i shouldnt of gotten mad at her as much as i did , but i guess i shouldnt of believed what she had told me earlier. but yea i acted like an asshole to her for most of the night and i finally realized it and gave her a very big and long hug and honestly when i hugged her i felt a lot better and forgot everything that i knew .but yea everything was all good until i got home and talked to her on the phone . i started to be more of an asshole to her then i ever did and im really sorry bout that and she has no idea how bad i wanted to stop but i couldnt . she shouldnt have to go through the shit that i put her through just cuz im a whinney little bitch. well yea we hung up and i told her to call me at 7 cuz i had to tell her something . but im gunna say it here to .so yea i get off the phone with her and my mom starts to yell at me and i start talking back to her and she fucking punches me in the face and on the side of the head for no fucking reason
and besides that i was still felling bad cuz of the way that i was treating becca on the phone ,so i decided that that was it and i was gunna do something to make everything go away but yea i almost did it but then i remembered that i promised becca i wouldnt do that anymore so now all i did was leave a couple of scratches on my arm. but what i dont get is that i treat becca like shes nothing all the time and she still wants to be with me and i dont get it ? i mean come on
i dont fucking deserve her and everybody knos that by now . she says its cuz she loves me but i
dont understand that either. i mean im fucking clingy and i always want to be around her and i think that it bothers her but she just doesnt want to tell me that it does cuz she thinks that it will hurt my feelings or something like that but it wont i mean if she doesnt want to hang out with me then i want her to tell me that rather then her have to deal with my fucking emo'ness every fucking day . i mean she has to get sick of me at some points during the day . but i love her and am willing to do anything for her but i cant cuz she doesnt want me to do anything for her . i really dont deserve her cuz lets face it ppl . im a fucking bad boyfriend and i cant help it . like im trying hard to change myself to make ppl like me but its not working . i fucking hate being mad at her but sometimes i cant help it . and if i could control it i would never be mad at her . honestly she is the one for me and thaTs why we like argue or shes mad at me i think shes gunna break up with me and if that ever happened i seriously would drop dead where ever i would be at the point in time but now im done rambling on bout nothing now so yea but i love her to pieces but i want to kno how she really feels bout me and everything else . hopefully ill feel better bout this when i wake up tomorrow so yea bye for now

I FUCKING HATE THIS .............................................................................

yea well this weekend hasent been the greatest ive ever had, but thats all thanks to my mind. first on friday me and becca were SUPOSSED to do something together cuz it was our 2 month anni. but yea that didnt happen so whatever its in the past! yea well i was supossed to go to her house on saturday but i couldnt thanks to her mom and her friend sarah being over, but the thing is that this whole past weekend i thought the most stupidest things ever ...yea i thought she didnt love me and that she didnt want me anymore and that she didnt miss me as much as i did her. but then again im a fucking dumbass who blows everything out of proportionbuz i need attention but yeasaturday night i went to bowling cuz there was nothing else to do do yea . mike was there and mandy and danny and steph and sara and val and yeaq aparrently megan ditched val for neo and her other friend and i got to work on saturday and i got payed to , i had to hand out damn bracelets, i fucking hate donig that but hey what can i do .. and well yea after i was done me,val, anthony,sara and steph were in the cafe and they told me to put ice on my hand and then cover it in salt then close my fist as tight as i could and see how long i could hold it shut and well it didnt hurt me but i have like these red marks on my hand now but yea ever since i talked to becca on sunday night eveything was better for me even tho whoever is reading this prolly dont care but either do i bye byez

"My Eyes Burn"

My eyes burn from these tears
You'd think I'd learn over these years
Good things won't last forever

So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you
And you had it all anyway

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

Tell me I'm wrong when I say
I can't expect you to spend forever with me
I live for that single moment

I take back everything I've said
You wore those words on your lips
As if they meant anything anyway

Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

Tell me I'm wrong when I say it
I can't expect you to spend forever with me
I live for that single moment

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
[x4]

yea well summer skool starts in less then 24 hours so i need sleep. but im not tired so im gunna rant on about my girlfriend. her name is rebecca. and i love her to pieces and ummm. she's beautiful and fun to be with and i would spent forever with her if that were possible but neways she really does complete me and she makes me so very ,very happy when im with her and i hope i make her feel the same

later

idk what to say cuz its a really boring today. and tomorrow we start summer skool which is really going to suck. today we went to the mall and we got ashley pant's at j c penny's. then we had taco bell and after they went to the bathroom i went to the book store and i was reading the harry potter book .OMFG i want that book. i love harry potter book's. well im at becca's now and there watching american pie 2 . but yea yesterdday was really weird but lets not get into that right now cuz i have to leave so and i dont have that much time to write what i need to but yes i want harry pottrer!!!!!!
omg i love it

its breathtaking to think of you and to learn that sometimes the only way out is through its mindnumbing to think of
yesterday i'll run to you now if i could but things have changed

[chorus]
(i heard you say) its enlightening to think of the breeze and to believe in things that we can't see
(so here we go) lets show them how to live accept the pain always forgive watch the sun go down learn the sound of
following all that is complete

its breathtaking to think of you and to learn with our fate that the sky isn't as blue its mindnumbing to think of
yesterday we'll look toward the stars and dream that we're airplanes

umm yeah today was really kool and other stuff...ok so i went to beccas house and me,her,and my lil ashley hung out and then we went bowling and it was ok i guess until later when it started to raine... we made out in the raine again... im starting to think the raine is my best friend ... it was really cold and wet and umm weird cuz everybody was like cheering us on and shit but yeah I LOVE THE RAINE... oh yea today me and becca made out in the spiderman way omg it was f'ing kool... shes a really good kisser ,oh and we watched dicki robert's, former childhood star...and justin was finally at bowling today which was kool cuz i havent seen my boo boo bear in a long time... and ash got upset at me today 4 some reason...and danny drove me home and that kid drives f'ing fast


i love you all Josh

umm yeah well my gf thinks im mad at her but im not i can never be mad at her . this is what happened..so yea i was gunna pierce some kids lip and they went to tops so they could get a needle for me to do it ..but i didnt want to go so i stayed at bowling
but th thing that was bothering me is the fact that becca said she would stay with me when they went to tops but then she changed her mind and went with them anyways even after i begged her not to go .. so she left me all by my lonesome but danny came backfrom where ever he was so i talked to him and ashlee for a lil bit.. but now i feel
bad for what i put becca through when they came back.. i didnt want to tell her cuz its just a really dumb thing to be upset about and idk im just stupid i guess but yea im done so ill write something else later

yeah i really dont kno what to write about right now but theres nothing better to do so ill tell you about my day..... first i get up and go to love joy to get ashley and
gremmie lynn .. (gremmie lynn is a little gremlin that everyone knos and loves)so yeah we get to the bus stop where becca is supossed to be waiting for us at and shes not there . so we wait until she comes then we go to spot and see kati and morgen so we hang with them for a little while and then becca and ashley go to beccas until 6
then i went to thursday at the square and meet them there with the bitch megan!
we hang out for a while and then i talked to the jesus ppl and told them that ive never been to chruch a day in my life. after that it starts to rain and me and becca are making out as usual but it was weird cuz ashley didnt scream at us to stop . but yeah now i have to pierce 3 kids lips for them for 10 bucks a pop!!!! but yeah thats alot of money for putting a hole in somebodys lip! but yeah oh yeah i got to spend the whole day with gremmie lynn.. i brought him/her home with me and we went shopping and it got to sit in the cart and have alot of fun ,but the best party bout today was that after all that i do to myself my girlfriend is allways there for me!!! I<3 u BECCA

LATER,JOSH

your lipstick, his collar.. dont bither angel
i kno exactly what goes on

when everything you'll get is
everything that you've wanted, princess
(well which would you prefer)
my finger on the trigger, or
(me face down, down across your floor)
me face down, down across your floor
(me face down , down across your floor
well just so long as this things loaded

and will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
this all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
and will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
this all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
lets go

dont bother trying to explain angel
i kno exactly what goes on when you're on and
how about im outside of your window
(how about im outside of your window)
watchin him keep the details covered
you're such a sucker( you're such a sucker)
for a sweet talker, yeah

and will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
this all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
the only thing that i regret is that i , i never let you hold me back
and will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
this was all only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin

hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
a thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
i will never ask if you dont ever tell me
i kno you kno well enough to kno you never loved me
hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
a thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
i will never ask if you dont ever tell me
i kno you well enough to kno...

why cant i feel anything
from anyone other than you ?
why cant i feel anything
from anyone other than you ?

and all of this was all your fault
and all of this

( i stay jealous)
i stay wrecked and jealous for this ,
for this simple reason
i just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(shell destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
i stay wrecked and jealous for this ,
for this simple reason
i just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life!!!

ok see this is for my girlfriend becca, i love you so much. you mean the world to me and i hope we will be together for the rest of our lifes. and i do get jealous when you say someone is hott cuz i think that means you like me less, i dunno i just do , but yea i cant imagine my life without you and you seriously need to give ur self some credit for helping me out the other day cuz you stopped me for doing something that prolly would of made me lose you and thats the last thing that i ever want to happen ,i love every second im with you but sad when im not with you bcuz i want to be with you all the time even if it is with ashley but every second im with out you im a mess and im the happiest ive ever been with you . you make me a better person inside me . and even tho you say im hott and stuff and i dont believe that i am but you make me feel like im important or even noticable and you have no idea how much that means to me . you help me through alot and i will always love you and im happy with you and i dont kno why ur even with me but you make me a better person when im with you which happens to be everyday so im a better person cuz of you and this is the honest to god truth, think of it what you will

later, Josh

smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that ive been waiting for
regardless of the distance and our hope...grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
the only time that ive been waiting for

i hope its something worth the waiting
cause its the only time that i ever feel real
thunderstorms could never stop me
cause theres no one in the world like emily...

shes simple yet confussing
her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble
days seem like years in this month of december
the winter coldens me for i have yet to sleep
and never will i give up trying because your everything to me


i hope its something worth the waiting
its the only time that i ever feel real
thunderstorms could never stop me
cause thers no one in the world like Emily.....